Dave Colbert

The problem with writing about the end of the world in real time is, … who’s going to be around to read it?

And yes, I know it always seems like the world is ending but this time seems worse than before. I do not see a path back to normalcy,.. But I guess that’s just getting old, isn’t it?

I don’t know what media sources to trust anymore and since it is all so slanted and biased, I’ve tuned out for the most part. I can’t be any more disgusted by Trump, his supporters, and the lack of reaction by the world, by Americans, and by the other people in my life than I already am. I’m maxed out. I’m rabid, and in a lot of ways, I’m ready for this to all be over. In an attempt to maintain my sanity, I’m focusing my attention on this website for personal expression and on rabidgorilla.com as my legacy.

I don’t know why I’m doing this. I don’t know if I’ll keep on doing it. I’m struggling to be honest. And for some strange reason, I feel the need to apologize for it .. to explain myself. So here goes.

I realized at age 30 that I had mental issues outside the norm. Maybe I realized it before that but I didn’t seek help until I was 30 and saw my life getting out of control. 

A few years later, a psychiatrist that I had been seeing, saw me in a manic state and realized that I was bipolar. Type 1, I believe it is… I go for weeks or months at a time kinda bummed out and passive but then I get an idea and just go crazy for a while.That usually leads to other ideas and I start a lot of projects with the highest ambitions and best of intentions… and then, I sort of lose interest and put them on the back burner.

And for that, I am sorry.

I’ve started a list… (who am I kidding? I’ve started a million lists.) … of the things I want to finish.

They’re not even all that major.. There’s a bunch of little stuff but I’m just not in the right mood. And there’s nothing pushing me to do them. Except me.. And I’m pretty easy on myself… which makes me a horrible boss.

The biggest thing I want to do in life before I leave it, is to get Rabid Gorilla off the ground and into the hands of more competent people who share, and can realize my dream.

That dream is the Rabid Gorilla Intention. It’s so important to me that I’ve given it its own page.

Here it bulk of it:

The Rabid Gorilla Intention

• Rabid Gorilla is the most celebrated, respected, and influential media company operating in the world.
• Profits of the company are donated to charities dedicated to supporting the creative arts.
• Artists and employees will be generously compensated for their work and their time.
• Ownership and control of the company will be established in such a way as to protect the company’s social mission in perpetuity.

Click HERE for a better explanation.

I know, I know…

I know that’s a ridiculously huge undertaking and I don’t expect to see it in my lifetime. I don’t need to.. I just want to get the ball rolling. I know my limitations and I know I can’t make this happen without tremendous help from smarter people than me. I’m not going to be the brains of Rabid Gorilla, but, for as long as I can, I would like to be it’s heart. Rabid Gorilla will be a company that is out to make a difference, not a profit. It will respect the art, the artist, and the audience. It is the company I want to work for and retire from.

I just need to invent it.

I need help. Lot’s and lot’s of help. I have plans within plans and over time… if I can muster the ambition, I will write about them here.

Are you in? … are you in-terested in learning more. … if so, contact me please.